Something that i, myself dont even understand

Guys hello I'm back. You guys should have think that my life is fun. Ya ya, but only weekend. I feel sad everyday when I need to go back office facing something that I don't like.  Did fast yet lots rejected that I feel so anger.  I have no idea at all what can I do. Doing it slowly by checking one by one make me feel so tiring and I feel so sleepy. One in a while I really fall sleep while I'm typing my disposition comment. Facing Google and all the system,  repeating for more or less 20 times making me feel so sick. With the "charming" and "expert" work title, it isn't proud at all when you are doing something that you don't  really like.

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